I am so scared about Tuesday. I know it is out of my control but I am mortified about the what ifs. What if it isn't gone and I have to do more chemo. What if my hair starting to grow back means my body just didn't respond to chemo. What if ca 125 in not in remission, what if, what if, what if...... What if it gets me.
I dislike mortification. I don't know how to do it well because I don't usually get to that level and now I life there it seems. I suppose a normal reaction to an abnormal condition.... Maybe I will write a book. What do you think?
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